A year ago this week, I found out I was pregnant with the Maddie Bear. I don't remember the exact date, but I think it may have been the 26th, because it was only a few days before Bob's birthday on the 28th. I didn't drink when we went out to dinner to celebrate, and because I'm obviously a lush, my mother became suspicious right away.
After everything that happened with Ellis, it took me and Eric a long time to accept that we were really having a baby. We were very excited...but also very cautious. I had spotting on and off throughout the first trimester and a blood clot on my uterus, all of which added to my caution. I was sure I was losing the baby on more than one occasion. In fact, I can remember driving home from the doctor's office about a week before giving birth and finally saying to Eric, "Oh, my God, we're having a baby!!" Duh, Summer. That's how long it took me to let myself really believe it.
Luckily, all the worrying was in vain because it turned out to be a very uncomplicated pregnancy, and now, here we are with a beautiful, healthy daughter. I thank my lucky stars every day that the universe decided to bless us with Madeline.
So, here we are. Maddie has been our lives in one way or another for a full year.
It's pretty crazy to think that she's gone from this:
We love you, Little Peanut.